§02 · Wax Erotic · 417 Hz · Éros · Draw and be drawn

What draws me?

In-Room Exercise — What Draws Me?

(→ Opening Invocation)

Together, three times:

VAM. VAM. VAM.

Let the sound settle. Feel where it landed in the body.

Now the question, silently:

What draws me?

Notice where you feel it. The chest, the belly, the pelvis, the throat. Let it be exactly what it is — comfortable or difficult, familiar or surprising.

Is this a want or a need? Does it arise from fullness or from scarcity?

Does it move toward giving or toward receiving?

Hold it without naming it aloud. The body already knows.

Together, three times:

VAM. VAM. VAM.

Whatever surfaced — welcomed back into the field. Open your eyes when ready.

Practice in the Wild — The Four Currents Inventory

Step 1 — The Uncensored List

Without filtering, write every desire that surfaces. Petty, filthy, childish, sublime, embarrassing, impossible, sacred, absurd. Let the list be fully honest. This is the brainstorm; nothing is crossed out at this stage. Let yourself be surprised. Let the embarrassing ones stay. They are carrying information the curated list never could.

Step 2 — The Map

For each desire on the list, locate it in one of four quadrants:

  • Want / Give — I want to offer this from fullness
  • Want / Receive — I want to receive this with grace
  • Need / Give — I feel compelled to give this (sit with this one: what fear lies beneath this compulsion?)
  • Need / Receive — I feel I cannot survive without this (tenderly: how old is this need? When was the first pang?)

Step 3 — Contemplation

Which of these desires are ready to move? Which need more tending, more clarity, more conversation before they are ready to act? Who, if anyone, would you invite into this territory with you? What did the sorting reveal that the brainstorm could not have told you?

The exercise does not aim at correct answers. It aims at visibility. What the map makes visible can be navigated. What stays invisible keeps driving.